I haven’t forgotten about the blog. Honestly, it has been tough to write since my diagnosis. (For many reasons!) Obviously, many things have changed since February (and even before that!) I guess it can be difficult to put these things into words and the struggle to not depress those around me is very much real! So today I’m doing a “The Good, The Bad, and the Ugly.” style post for your viewing pleasure. Who knows? Maybe this will become a regular thing. 😉 Life isn’t perfect and there are many messes along the way! Let’s be REAL!
Declan and I both have summer colds. (They are just the worst!) This means that Father’s Day was spent ordering take out for dinner and watching a movie or two. John was an awesome sport about all of it. I’m so thankful for him. <3
I’ll preface the next thing by saying, I understand the need for medication, but I do not always agree with everything I’m told. I’m currently taking Myrbetriq, Amitriptyline, Valium (vaginally), freeze-dried Aloe Vera capsules, as well as other vitamins/supplements. I stopped taking the Valium due to it burning me…but before that I was pretty much a zombie. I feel less numb now that I’m off the Valium, but I don’t imagine that will sit well with the doctor. (More on that in The UGLY)
The past TWO or so years have been the biggest fight of my life. I’ve struggled with depression and just coping in general with what this diagnosis means for me. (I’m grateful to an amazing therapist, who is helping me work through all of this.) It’s been incredibly isolating and difficult to process.
So the worst moment of this month was spent talking to my doctor about treatments. As much as I respect her opinions and expertise, I felt that she acted very unprofessionally. In regards to me being cautious with taking medications, she made me feel like I was a “difficult patient.” She said “I won’t give up on you yet.” It was very distressing and made me feel like my feelings on the subject didn’t matter. I don’t look forward to our follow up because I’m sure she will disapprove of the fact that I dropped one of my prescriptions because it was burning me and also it contributed to the zombie feelings. I guess we will see.
Thanks for reading! Have any of you had such an experience with a healthcare provider? Share your Good, Bad, and UGLY moments below!!! Please and Thank You!!!